I was watching the movie...again...Baggage Claim and I started thinking: sometimes we can allow other people's opinion to become our own or their values and "rules" to become our own. Sometimes we allow their expectations to become imparted on us so much so that we lose track of what we really want, and not only want, but; deserve.
It's not called settling though; it's called something else. It's not making do with a situation or even putting up with a situation. It's called being tired. You get lazy, exhausted, and apathetic with trying to attain a promise or desire that you have in your mind and heart for so long that you begin to mold your situation into something that it's absolutely not and then you get pissed or disheartened when the outcome doesn't match your predicted thoughts or results. However, at the time you don't realize that so you stay...working things out...putting up with things...figuring something is wrong with you...misguided!
What you are doing is trying to fit a round peg into a square hole and you have yet to figure out that there's two different shapes. It's not because you are stupid. You just can't see past what you really want! And because you can't see the forest past the row of trees you're looking at- you get lost.
Lost in years, lost in tears, and lost within your own fears. But I'm here to tell you that if you just hold out for the permanent blessing with your name on it! If you just hold on for the light, logic, and love you truly desire. If you can keep pushing, keep re-adjusting, keep maintaining the little bit of sanity you have left through your situation God will make a way out of no way for you!
I'm also here to say if at any point you feel as if you're done holding on with no sight of fulfillment. If you feel like a mess, tangled in a nightmare web. If you feel exhausted and weary...go to that quiet place. Get there in a hurry. Remind your self of what you want and no matter if you truly believe it or not, tell yourself, "It's coming!"
Tell yourself, in that quiet place, "It's coming!" Say it over and over again until you believe it! Tell yourself, "It's coming," until the tears dry. Tell yourself, "It's coming," until you don't fear its arrival or if and how it's coming. Tell yourself, "It's coming," until there's a smile on your face and joy in your heart! And once you get to that place....tell yourself, "It's coming," and place a date on it! Manifest your vision and thoughts!
It's coming, friends!
Best of blessings to you,
xoxo